Only Up From Here - Justin Bieber: Seasons

Justin:

I'm gonna sing, right?

Man: 'Kay.

♪ Your voice

is music to my ears ♪

♪ I'm wide awake ♪

♪ You say that no matter what ♪

♪ You're watching over me ♪

( singing indistinctly,

echoing )

( continues )

( vocalizing )

( cheers )

- Yeah?

- Yeah!

- Do I sound good?

- Hell yeah, baby.

- You sure? Okay.

- Positive.

- ( music playing on speakers )

- ( rustling )

♪ No seatbelt on ♪

- Man: Less sleep.

- ♪ No seatbelt on ♪

♪ No seat, no seat ♪

- Okay.

- ♪ No seat ♪

What?

- Oh! I'm so sorry.

- You said "No seatbelt."

- I'm so sorry.

- It's okay.

Justin:

I'm just nervous a little bit.

Just expectation stuff.

Shouldn't we be writing

this stuff down?

♪ What is there-- ♪

Again. Shit.

This album has to be flawless,

and this is really hard to do.

I'll be honest,

I don't feel good.

I struggle with massive anxiety.

There's a lot of people,

I think,

that think that fame

is this achievement

that brings you fulfillment

and happiness.

And the truth is

there's this weight

and this heaviness on you

to achieve and to be something.

People have these

expectations of you.

It's just a lot.

You know, it's nothing shy

of devastating.

When someone is 13

or 14 years old,

we know that the brain

is not yet ready

to handle all the rigor

that comes with being

an entertainer,

let alone somebody who's

quite as famous as Justin.

We started working with Buzz,

who is amazing.

He's a behavioral specialist.

She remembers the time

where I would get stressed

and I've remembered that, too.

So it's, like--

that's a categorical

trigger, right?

100%. 'Cause it's not

all the little details.

It's just under

the category of this show

or this event

that we did in the past

felt this way.

So your brain says,

"I'm going to remember

what that felt like."

You know what my brain says?

You know what my brain says?

"Run."

Buzz:

When I first saw him,

you know,

he really wasn't functional.

I think as human beings

in general,

I think we're-- most of us,

I don't know if anyone

wants to admit this,

but most of us are hurting.

Music helps me cope

with my day to day struggles.

His cortisol levels

are through the roof.

So your cortisol is your

fight or flight mechanism.

Justin:

This has been the hardest,

roughest season of my life.

The pressure of delivering,

you know,

delivering a good album,

and just a lot

of different things.

I can get it better.

♪ Only angels ♪

♪ Only ♪

♪ Only angels speak-- ♪

Shit.

I made a promise to him

that if he could never sing,

if he could never dance,

if he could never entertain,

I'd still always be

in his life.

Scooter has been highly invested

in checking in with me

on Justin's health.

Scooter sees him

almost like a son.

I think when I was younger,

you know,

he was always an authority

figure in my life.

I was rebellious against that.

At this point, I just want

to see him happy and healthy.

We've put together a process

and a schedule,

and we're having meetings

and we have goals

for the staff.

Allison, uh, updated

schedule presentation?

What I gave you was

a theoretical dreamworld.

And now I have

actual availabilities

and things like that.

We're talking

the long-term schedule.

A schedule like Justin's

is like an NFL football player

playing Sunday football

every single Sunday,

every single week

of the year,

52 games a year

for ten straight years.

And it just can't be done.

These are supplements,

and too many of them,

if you ask me.

You're taking them very late

in the day today, babe.

I don't take them "yate."

You took them at two o'clock.

Anxiety creeps in.

He has to get away.

Do you know Amangiri?

Justin: I was, like,

feeling pressure.

I had to just get away

from everything.

It was right smack in the middle

of the album process.

He was recording things,

getting new songs all the time,

trying to figure out

what direction

he kind of wanted to go in.

It was good rest for us.

( indistinct chatter )

Have you ever had

the Flamin' Hot Munchies?

- They're fire, right?

- Yeah.

- How are you doing, dude?

- Pretty good.

- No.

- Oh.

I just feel like it's so random

for them to be in--

like, on a road trip

in a random place like this

and run into us.

Like, if we were on

a road trip--

And we, like, ran into,

like, Adam Sandler

- in the middle of nowhere.

- Yeah.

- You know? You'd be like--

- Yeah, yeah. It's true.

Justin:

Amangiri was so fun.

I just feel comfortable

and safe traveling with Hailey.

Hailey: Something that

we love a lot as a couple

is we love to experience

new things together,

because he has

obviously experienced

the most in life

for somebody his age.

He's been everywhere.

He's seen everything.

He's done everything.

But he hasn't really done

a lot of those things

with a partner.

Man: When you're there,

are you thinking about work

or do you try to

not think about it at all?

I think that's where Buzz

is really helping me

because my brain has been

so foggy for so long,

it's hard for me

to compartmentalize stuff.

♪ Never ungrateful for it ♪

♪ That's all me before it ♪

♪ Habitual lady ♪

♪ My love is habitual, yeah ♪

( vocalizing )

( music playing on speakers )

- ( muttering )

- ( music continues )

Every time I--

Every time I roll,

I gotta, unh, unh, unh.

- Every time, unh.

- He's a night owl,

I will say that.

He's always up

in the nighttime

eating cereal

and just roaming around.

I have no idea.

I feel like creative people

tend to be night owls.

♪ Tell me what you wanna know ♪

♪ I'll tell it to you

right now ♪

♪ Every time I, unh, it back,

I'm chicken like it's Kung Pow ♪

Hailey: Yup.

( music stops )

Hailey:

Where we were staying at,

there was this big, big,

big rock outside,

almost like a little mountain.

And pitch black,

in the middle of the night,

you can't even

see in front of you,

Justin's like,

"Let's go climb it."

Everything feels

like something new

when you're doing it

with the right person.

The stars were something

like I've never seen

before in my life.

You just felt like you were

somehow closer to heaven.

( music playing )

Justin: Life is good.

Life is amazing.

We have so many things

to be grateful for,

so many things to

wake up and look at

and be like, "Oh, my gosh."

But, you know, we got to

make much of what we have.

You can always be

grateful for something.

I think-- I think

"Angels Speak," too.

"Angels Speak" is another

special one, man.

13, 14, 15.

- That's an album right there.

- That's a--

There's that number, dude.

( overlapping chatter )

Hailey: Whoa, babe!

That's a big deal.

Justin:

Okay, let's bounce.

We got maybe a couple

more songs.

We're pretty much done.

♪ Your voice is music

to my ears ♪

♪ I'm wide awake ♪

♪ Stuck on the way

your frequencies resonate ♪

♪ You say that no matter what,

you're watching over me ♪