Album on the Way - Justin Bieber: Seasons

So here, this is me

with Hailey in New York.

We were riding bikes,

and I remember

just struggling.

I remember feeling, like,

emotionally just overwhelmed,

and talking to her.

Not knowing how to, like,

communicate certain things

and just feeling kind of,

like, frustrated.

You know,

there's been a lot of things

that have happened

in my life.

And, um, I think this

was just a point in my life

where I was just so overwhelmed.

And I'm just--

I'm being a normal person and--

and crying, um, I think.

When I look at

when I'm in the media

or I look at things

on the internet

and people are like,

"Justin's upset.

Why is he upset?"

It's like they don't give me

permission to be upset.

I don't get-- I don't have

permission to be, you know,

human and shed tears.

And there's so many people

every day

who are in a conversation

with their girl

or their wife or their mom

and they break down, you know?

But they don't have cameras

capturing it, you know?

So, people are like,

"Is he okay?

He's having a mental breakdown,"

um, you know?

And I'm just--

I'm just emotional.

I-- you know?

And I think that's okay.

( music on speakers )

♪ Whoa, whoa, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, whoa, oh, forever ♪

♪ Ever, ever, ever ♪

♪ Do you want to look

at me forever? ♪

♪ Ever, ever ♪

♪ Uh, yeah ♪

Are you gonna put that

at the end?

Remember when it was like,

um, over that beat?

♪ Do you want to look at me

forever, ever, ever? ♪

- Sure.

- You told me you

were going to.

- You don't have to lie to me.

- We talked about that?

- No, I mean-- hey, hey, bro.

- It's okay. You're--

If you want to do your job,

do your job.

But if you don't, don't.

I mean, it's up to you.

- That's right.

- You know?

( music on speakers )

♪ Picture perfect,

you don't need no filter ♪

♪ Gorgeous,

make 'em drop dead ♪

Poo Bear: I always just would

base my feelings, like,

on a song off of, like,

the way I felt

or a reaction

of other people.

You know, Scooter coming in

to listen to everything, like,

the music whispers something,

and it'll be like, "Hit."

♪ Yeah, you got that

yummy, yum ♪

♪ That yummy, yum ♪

♪ That yummy, yummy,

say the word on my way ♪

♪ Yeah, babe, yeah, babe,

yeah, babe ♪

♪ You got the yum,

yum, yum, whoa ♪

♪ Whoa, ooh ♪

♪ Yeah, you got that yummy,

yum, that yummy, yum ♪

Nick: I think Justin's one

of the greatest performers.

There's something about

his character, his charisma,

and I think he misses it.

I've been working with Justin

for over ten years now.

And I always say, like,

I'm really good at reading him.

And as much as he secluded

himself from that shit, like,

man, that man lives

for the stage.

He loves his fans.

He always talks about them.

"I know my fans are waiting.

I know they want new music."

And, like, I always told him

when he was sad, I'm like,

"Yo, you should go make music

'cause you love it."

You know, and he'd be,

"Ah, I don't want to throw

anything out right now."

I'm like,

"No, don't put anything out.

Just go make music."

'Cause that's when he's at

his happiest.

I think he misses that.

And I don't think

he wants to say it,

but he misses that shit, yeah.

I think fear

is an attack on my life,

and I think it has been

for a long time.

But it's funny because

I'll go and jump on a stage.

- Woman: Right. Right.

- And I don't care at all.

Man: Are you really

not afraid to go on stage?

- What's the difference

between--

- Not at all.

Man:

How is that possible?

Uh, because when I'm on stage,

um, it's a different--

it's a different side

of your brain, I think.

It's a creative side

to your brain.

I think the other side,

the processing side,

is a different side.

I think that takes

more frontal lobe,

and right now my frontal lobes

are really ( bleep ).

When I'm performing,

I have this--

I have the mic, so it's me

leaving everything.

But when I'm vulnerable

and I'm talking,

it's almost like I can't--

don't feel like I can lead.

I feel like people are

judging me for some reason.

( indistinct chatter )

- Come on, Scooter.

- There you go, Scoot.

( indistinct chatter )

( all cheering )

We are on the set

of the "Yummy" music video.

The first music video

for the first single

off of "Changes."

♪ On the table,

get on the table ♪

Hailey: I think that was

a significant day

because it's the first time

he's done a music video

for something

of his own solo work

for the first time in

a really, really long time.

- ( music on speakers )

- Man: That's it.

Scooter asked me to be

a the "Yummy" shoot.

Man: And action!

- ( playing instruments )

- Good.

Buzz: I'm behind the scenes

watching him on a video camera,

and no sooner does

he get out there and he--

he just had

a really tough time.

We appreciate

everyone's patience, guys.

- ( indistinct chatter )

- Sound's up.

Justin: It was-- it was just--

it was a lot, you know?

Like, a lot of people,

a lot of dynamic,

a lot of stuff.

I was in my head a lot,

you know?

It was hard for me

to really enjoy it like that.

But I know that some days

are gonna be just like that.

I mean, in any work space,

you know,

there's gonna be

those off days

where you just

feel kind of like--

I got a good crew.

Everyone's, you know--

I should be good, but,

like, today I just feel off.

I think that day

I was just a little off.

Buzz: You know, Justin and I

developed a routine

that when he feels stressed,

that he can use a technique

called havening

that I was trained in,

and havening is

a psychosensory technique

that it actually raises

the feel-good chemicals

in your brain on demand.

It's basically like

a self-soothing thing.

Everybody kind of has

their own version of havening

without even knowing it.

It's like when

you're a little kid

and you suck your thumb

to soothe yourself

when you're starting to feel

really stressed out

or just to keep yourself calm.

It's almost like, I think,

when you're, like, a kid

and your mom is, like,

rubbing your back to sleep.

And it's, like,

the best feeling in the world.

It's kinda like that, except

you're doing it for yourself.

Buzz:

We coordinate, he and I,

prompts that allow him

to know what it is

that he should be doing

in the moment

that he's feeling stressed.

And then he has a coordinated

signal back to me

that lets me know

what's wrong, how he feels,

and what he needs.

The key to

his mental health now

is to create a structured,

organized,

predictable environment

around him.

( music playing )

Nick: I think right now,

what it is,

is just to keep him

mentally healthy

and, you know, happy

is creating a schedule

that's not too

overwhelming for him.

Before, when we would put

a tour together,

we would put the tour together

while doing awards shows

and promo shows and radio shows

and interviews,

and then fly to New York

to do Jimmy Fallon,

fly back in, do a rehearsal,

shoot a music video,

all within

the same amount of time.

This schedule just needs to be

a little easier on him,

not overwhelm him

with 17 jobs in a day.

Amen: Someone right when

they're getting sober

and their brain

just looks terrible,

that same brain

six months from now

can look much better if you do

the right things for it.

I'm just incredibly impressed

with the brain's

ability to heal.

The changes that I've seen

with Justin are monumental.

He's matured tremendously.

He's not living in

survivor mode anymore.

His sleep is pretty wonderful.

I mean, it's healthy and he's,

you know, able to wake up

in the morning

and be cheerful

and excited and exercise.

Nick:

One thing where's he's really

grown and really changed

is how he deals with things

and how he deals with

what he's feeling,

how he deals with anxiety

that creeps in.

He faces it in a very,

very different way.

He's not medicating himself.

He's just growing

and using the down moments

to his advantage and learning.

Hailey:

There's always gonna be

good days and bad days

if you work a nine to five job

or if you're Justin.

It doesn't really matter

who you are.

Everybody's gonna have days

where they wake up

and they feel crappy

and they don't feel like

pushing through it that day,

but it's part of life.

I can say confidently

that I know

he's the most excited

for this chapter.

♪ Oh, whoa, whoa,

oh, oh, oh, oh ♪

♪ Oh, whoa, whoa,

forever, ever, ever, ever ♪

♪ Do you want to look at me

forever, ever, ever? ♪

♪ Yeah, do you see us in Vegas

pushing on Monte Carlo? ♪

♪ Bet that money on baby ♪

♪ Bet she don't leave me,

oh, no ♪

Oh, man. One for the road.

This one's called

"Good Night, Stax."

( music playing )

♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪

♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪

Man: He's a sweet dog.

♪ Tomorrow I'll be back ♪

♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪

♪ Good night, Mr. Stax ♪

♪ Tomorrow you know

I will be back ♪

♪ Stax ♪

That's it.